earlier this week, i had one of those "eustace" experiences...
cousin eustace follows the gang into narnia in cs lewis' book, voyage of the dawn treader.
eustace hates everything about narnia, he complains, he whines, he insults people..
he is only thinking of himself!
while on an island he becomes enchanted as a dragon...covered in scales, trapped in his pain!
there is no hope, and he has a terrible time trying to get his friends to know that he is now a dragon!
it takes aslan...to rip off the scales, break through the crust and the layers of pain and bitterness that have surrounded his heart ...and set him free from the dragon skin!
aslan gives him new skin. new heart... a new self!
this week i saw how buried i have become in my dragon skin.
how the scales have grown harder and harder, and how my own efforts
to free myself have all been in vain.
i need you aslan...to set me free again!
to heal my heart
to give me NEW SKIN! to clean me up and give me new clothes.
to awaken me with the hope and love that you actually want to set me free!
thanks for loving this dragon
enough to get rid of my scales of fear, frustration, complaining, complacency, anger, ego, impatience, etc!
help me to want new skin and not want to stay in the old smelly, hard, scaly stuff that keeps me in prison and out of relationship...
and aslan, help me to always see the adventure in all that you are doing, both in and around me....amen.